February 2009




It’s hard to believe it’s already been a month since Tyler’s birth. In a way, it feels like it’s been forever. But at the same time, it seems like this past month has gone by in a flash.

It’s definitely been tough…both mentally and physically. A “full night’s sleep” has become a thing of the past for George and I. Although to be fair, Tyler is a great sleeper. We only have to wake up once during the night to feed and change her, and then she’ll go right back to sleep until morning. The hard part for me is during the day when I’m home alone and she doesn’t want to sleep. While she’s awake, my time is completely devoted to watching her. Not that she gets fussy, but during the time she’s awake, I’m limited to what I can do around the house.

I have never been so overwhelmed with fatigue and yet so completely contempt as I have been this past month. Being a mom really is tough. I find myself worrying about things that I used to laugh at my sister for worrying about with Charlie and Chase. Like if I notice Tyler hasn’t pooped after a few feedings, I’ll seriously consider calling her pediatrician. Sigh. And to think, I have another 18 years of worrying to go…but on the flip side, it’s amazing how the little things that she does can make me so happy and in awe. A little wink, a smile…even a new facial expression are all  I need to know that all of the worrying and overwhelming fatigue are worth it.  She’s so great and such a happy, mellow baby that I can’t really ask for anything more.

Now that the month of lock down is finally over, I can finally take her out in public and show her off to the world! 🙂